pride will tear us both apart.

I'm at war with myself again. My life has gone from bad to worse in a matter of days. I should've been able to see this coming from a mile away, why I didn't is beyond me. Everything I touch breaks. Everyone I love leaves me. Everything I care about ends up being fake. And everything I wish could be real will never exist.

At this point I'm pretty sure that nothing in my life will ever get better. Writing and music are all I have. I was so stupid for thinking that things would ever work out. Im literally at a loss for words. There is so much I could say but for some reason i can't type it out. Everytime i try it turns out like this;

jksdlfjsdlfjldfjlsdfjlsdfl;fweur08urdfjlsdfjlsdfjl;ajofiodgnfgf.
one big mess that i call my life.

i just wish i had one person that i could share my heart with but at the same time i feel like im better off on my own. im stuckk at a cross road again. my heart and my mind want different things again, but my pride will tear them both apart. pride will tear my life apart. or maybe it already has.